My parents
cut me off
my boyfriend
cut me off
music
is all I have left

sucks.
friends stab backs
boys lie
so much stress
the only constants r music, art, heros, and my truest friends <3333

he left me and i am fuckin heartbroken
cant go to sleep or
eat
all that and
im so depressed
it hurts

The Will To Death is what keeps me alive
It’s one step away
Limitations are set
Only then can we go all the way

And have you seen how the cars when they pass
They come your way
Then they’re speeding away
Coming to you and then going away
But for them nothing 's changed


I think I want to start an actual blog not livejorunal. i need to start reading good writing i need inspiration.

The cruise was nice
I'm tan now
Sorta.
I came back and
Wrote a few songs
Made some art
Worked on a
Short story
Its these things that
Give my life meaning
Art and music and written words
Those are everything
Rubin mission is go
Things are
Looking up

my mummy and dad
didnt get me a digicam for xmas
but
they did take me
on a cruise in the bahamas!
we left a few days ago
went to Miami
waited in some registration lines
and left
I'm posting from the ship right now
it is huge
I dont think ive seen all ov it
so much food
i may die
of overindulgence
internet access is expensive
bye bye my loves!

Begged my mom today to hook me up with her connections.
honestly I dont even know what I would do if I got the opportunity!

What would I say? What would I do? Could I tell him how much I admire him? I bet he hears that all the time.
Would I give him something, no that would be cheesy.

Thinking about this
is harder than doing it.

My mom works in PR and I think somehow
she has a connection to that man.

I want to find out and sneak my way into meeting him and marrying him
or something!


I need to spend less money when I go out, shit.

Adam is here and I told him I'm updating my journal so hi adam!!!
Anyways Im feeling good today. Ate another burrito. Trying to write some more songs.
I want to leave and just drive sometimes.
drive and write songs.
I need to do more with my life because I'm always bored.
hate being bored.
I'm going to go drive.

Today I played my guitar for 2 hours straight
and it made my fingers hurt but it felt right.

I ate a burrito and smoked a cigarette. Felt right.